It has been a long time since I have had nights like the last few. Perhaps you know the kind.
I was bone tired. Not another ounce left in me. All I wanted to do was sleep and yet, sleep evaded me. I tossed and turned. I got up to walk around the house a bit, thinking, this would surely help. It had to make me tired enough for sleep to come more easily.
All to no avail.
Why is it the nights can stretch long as if they have no end?
The dark and still seem to envelop and all rationale thoughts exit. As the night stretches, longer and longer, my thoughts seem to go places I didn’t know they would venture. Scenarios begin to raise up in my mind like a 3-D movie. Scenarios, which in the daylight I know are preposterous, in the dark seem to become reality.
My heart pounds. My stomach tenses. The tears begin to roll.
I spoke His Name.
It was then that my mind, in its logical state, began to return.
It has been a while since I have had these sort of feelings. I can remember them well but I never expected them to return.
I spoke His Name aloud.
There will be nights like these in my life. Seasons where the night is longer than a 24 hour day. Nights where the shadows seem to shout their “what if” scenarios in my head so loudly they seem to be fact.
“Jesus”, I continue to speak His Name every few minutes.
The enemy of my soul knows to come in the shadows. In the still of the night. He knows my Achilles heel – my family.
I remember … there is a shadow greater than the shadow of the night. “He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.” (Psalm 91:1)
“Jesus”, I speak His Name barely in a whisper now. Calm has begin to settle into my body as it relaxes. My mind is now focused on One thing … His Name.
A sense of relief begins to flood my soul. Sleep comes. But not before I remember …
There’s only One Name.
- One Name which breaks the shadows.
- One Name which brings light.
- One Name which floods peace into my mind.
- One Name calms the storm which rages in my mind.
- One Name which speaks truth louder than any lie.
And all I needed to do was speak His Name – “Jesus”.
Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name at is above every other name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth.” (Philippians 2:10, NIV)