Doing this series was for me – not to grow my blog but for me, personally. I needed some answers which only He could provide me. And if no answers came, I knew He would give me a better understanding of who He was in my life and that alone would be enough for me.
For many years now,Â my family has nicknamed me “Ms. Happy”. I am not sure if my being happy was not a source of irritation to my family most days. I seemed to always look on the bright side, stay optimistic and be happy. I never realized what a gift I truly had been given until the joy was gone. I am not sure when it was gone or how long it had been gone before I took notice. But when I took notice, I was not the happy camper.
And for much of the summer, I was not even sure how to deal with its absence or how to get it back. You better believe it when I say, in many ways, it was a long short summer. I began praying for God to give back to me the joy I had once felt. The answer He gave was this:
“Restore to me the joy of your salvation and make me willing to obey you.”
(Psalm 51:12, NLT)
I was stumped as I was not sure exactly how this was to apply to me and my lack of joy.
The word ‘restore’ in the Hebrew “essentially denotes movement back to the point of departure.” (Old Testament Lexical Aids).
The battle inside began … “Lord, I haven’t departed from You.”
“Ah, but are you willing to obey?”
That was where I had departed.
A particular situation was unfolding in my life with which I didn’t necessarily agree. Meaning well, and trust me I truly did mean well, I kept giving my opinion on the matter. And giving it. And giving it. And … well, you get the point. I kept giving it even after I knew He was telling me to keep quiet.
And that was how I lost my joy.
That same word “restore” is used elsewhere in Scripture:
- “Restore us, O God; make your face shine upon us, that we may be saved.” (Psalm 80:3, NIV). God brings us back to the point of intimate relationship and favor.
- “In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation.” (1 Peter 5:10, NIV). Our hard times are only for a time. Christ Himself brings us to the point of being strong and supported once again.
And that was how I found my joy … I obeyed and stayed quiet. Instead I opted to pray, and pray hard, asking Him to intervene – to open and close doors, to lead, to direct.
Â Sometimes we circle around.
But sometimes, we must circle back.
And it is there, we are restored.
This is Day 13 of 31 Days Of Going In Circles. You can find the entire series here .
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