The other day my son was looking for both a Sharpie & a pencil. Both can be found on my desk – the Sharpie in one of my drawers & pencils on top of my desk usually in a baggie.
Most of the pencils are small as I will keep using them until I can no longer hold them due to their smallness. And most no longer have erasers. Now mind you, it isn’t that I do not have a vast supply of pencils but I enjoy using pencils until they are used up. Looking at my baggie of pencils got me to thinking…..
I have tended to want to write my life with a Sharpie. I think there may be a name for it – “The Five Year Plan” or “Where I Want To Be In Ten Years” or “My Goals For Life”. And so I have planned:
- wanting to go to college
- land a good job
- get married
- buy a house
- have a baby
- maybe two babies
- buy a new car
- move to a bigger house
I won’t tell you how many I did or did not achieve & certainly not in the above listed order.
Life just does not cooperate with Sharpies.
Life tends to be written in pencil. And lately, I have concluded that I should be using pencils with huge erasers as life changes constantly. Perhaps that is why I have always preferred pencils to pens as my writing instrument of choice. Scripture puts it this way:
In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. (Proverbs 16:9 NIV84)
I can make detailed plans, carefully weighing all the options or resort to a roll of the proverbial die but the reality is all the events of my life & circumstances are in God’s control. All. Of. It. Every day. I can plan but He directs. Even what seems to happen by chance, is not chance at all. It is all a part of His sovereign plan for my life.
I love the way Eugene Peterson words it:
We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it.
(Proverbs 16:9, The Message)
This morning I realized why none of my pencils have erasers. And why one of the funniest birthday presents I received was a box of Vera Bradley pencils 🙂